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Protector I Wish I Was by rubbernubbers, literature

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Protector I Wish I Was

Protector I Wish I Was I wish I was there, I wished I even remembered. This pain and toil you suffer. I try to protect you, Guarding you with my life. Then I forget you are behind me, Walking away without a fight. When I return, I find you broken, Condemning myself and healing you, Then doing it all again. Will this cycle ever end? Or will I continue With these contradicting lies, Letting you, The innocent one, To fend all alone.

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Feeling With Numbness by rubbernubbers, literature

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Feeling With Numbness

Feeling With Numbness No more feelings, No more questions. The blade stops shaking, Clinking to the floor. No more emotions, No more cares. What was once a release, Is now just clutter. Maybe its time to fade, Maybe its time to try, Or maybe after all Its really time to cry. The tears come, Then soon hide. Complete blankness is all that comes. A filled emptiness that is not understood.

To Fly Again by rubbernubbers, literature

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To Fly Again

To Fly Again And he lies there dreaming, Seeing his tattered wings whole. No longer trying to heal them With this bloodied knife. Personal savior. Self-proclaimed damnation. Lost within himself, Finding all that he wishes not to find out. He crawls from his bed, Screaming to be heard This pain unbearable, Stabbing deeper to heal. His sanity cracks, To him his wings heal. He goes to the edge, And takes the plunge. Even as the wind whistles past, He sees himself soaring again. Never feeling the jolt, His smile says he found himself.

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Drunken Rendition II by rubbernubbers, literature

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Drunken Rendition II

Drunken Rendition II Another drunken stupor. Another pseudo-philosophical night. More time to hate myself, More time to kill. Alone i wander. Drunk Immortal Alone Tortured. Forever reminded of what I can never have Only reminded of what I've lost. Forever I'm lost. Not knowing who I am. Not knowing what I was. Never knowing who I would have been. I try to struggle. I try to fight. But this night tonight, Took the last of my might.

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The Giving Tree Revisited

The Giving Tree Revisited i am Your Giving Tree, Giving You all i ever had. But no matter how hard i tried, No matter what i gave, i was never good enough for You. Whatever You wanted, i got You. Whatever You needed, i gave to You. Yet You still don’t see my love. When You asked of me, i gave You my body, In which to climb upon. But all You did was only complained, That i was an inch too short. When You were hungry, i gave You my very flesh For You to eat. But all i was to You then, Was an apple too short. When You needed heat, i gave to You my very limb For You to burn. But even when You were warm. You said i

A Secondary Dreaming Of... by rubbernubbers, literature

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A Secondary Dreaming Of...

A Secondary Dreaming Of Something Better Always I've wanted to be number one for you, The first you think of, The one you see as you fall asleep. Instead I'm always just a fleeting thought, Never there for more than a moment. I always wished I was the one you plan for, Not the one you wish was some one else. I always wanted to be "that guy," Not just "that one guy."

A Toast To Bitter Friends by rubbernubbers, literature

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A Toast To Bitter Friends

A Toast To Bitter Friends I sit here all alone Making a quiet toast. Toasting the darkness. Toasting this pain. Trying to stop these tears. Another toast I make, Hoping maybe this one will stop them. I soon remember all the good times had, Wishing we still were. The very thought of you No matter how joyous or good, Brings me back to this pain. I make another toast To the darkness, My only company. I toast again, Trying to stop this all. Soon the bottle is gone, My world starts spinning. I see myself fall. Before I hit, I think of you. What I started this to forget, Has now been done in vain.

Fallen by rubbernubbers, literature

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Fallen

Fallen For a moment I thought That maybe this was real. But I should have known better, Than to actually feel. This pain is my sentence, This isolation my cell. From my once solid faith, How far away have I fallen? Far from what I used to think unshakable, Thought nothing in the world could phase me. But this is nothing like I once thought, For me to still believe, Is nothing of which I am able.

Growing Up Too Soon by rubbernubbers, literature

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Growing Up Too Soon

Growing Up Too Soon I used to say I would never become one of them Ever again. But god how I miss those days, Back when "being cool" And fitting in, Was the thing to do. Oh how I miss those days, Back when life was so much simpler. Worry free. Life was so much easier, Before our feet touched the floor. What happened to those days? It used to be no matter what, Nothing ever went wrong. This world makes us grow-up too fast, We lose all that we should have had. Maybe someday we will all learn, Maybe someday our children will grow-up, Laughing their sorrows forever away.

Last Friends And Final Comfort by rubbernubbers, literature

Mental Freedom by rubbernubbers, literature

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Mental Freedom

Mental Freedom There are two people Inside of me, Both begging to be free. Both of these people, Wanting to be me. But the war that is raging inside of me, Is them trying to be free. But only one can be, Someone cease their breath. One day soon I must choose, Or my sanity shall be lost. I do not know Which I shall be, Nor do I know Which I need to be. Each and every day These questions go unanswered. Every minute The war between these two grows fiercer. My sanity the lose. If I only knew If I was ever meant to love, Or if I even still could, I might be able to choose, And my sanity not lose.

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The Crafting of Erdunia

The Crafting of Erdunia In the darkness that is the universe a voice rang out. The voice was masculine, commanding, and with a slight accent. It said, "'Ey! Can we get some light in 'ere?" "I think I can handle that," answered a voice of a more feminine persuasion. This voice somehow managed to give the impression of waves on sand, wind in the branches of a tree, rocks colliding and fire crackling all at the same time. Shortly after this voice spoke points of light formed in the nothingness and began swirling toward a central location. They began to collide and form a fiery o

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New Innocence by rubbernubbers, literature

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New Innocence

New Innocence Tonight we grow so close, Will we grow any closer? We both dont want this, Yet the lust tells us We are men and women, Yet the world tells us we're still children, Growing up through a phase. They tell us we shouldn't, Then they tell us how we should. These hypocrisies only confuse us This night is so close, The final act is starting in motion. We both question Is this love or lust, But we start to lose thoughts They say innocence is so important Stay the children we now Are until the day we wed. Tonight we became men and women. We cry in one another's arms. Wishing to take this night back. We have grown so

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Deviant for 17 years
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Current Residence: first house on the right, the one with the flames that looks like hell
Favourite genre of music: Pretty Much Any
Operating System: Mac (I Prefer Something Stable)
MP3 player of choice: iPod Shuffle
Wallpaper of choice: the kind you can lick and tastes like candy? (yay Willie Wonka)
Personal Quote: Tell Me About The Rabbits George - Lennie (Of Mice And Men)

Favourite Movies

Secondhand Lions, The Crow, Princess Bride, or Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

depends on mood

Favourite Games

Mind Games:)

Favourite Gaming Platform

Wii

Tools of the Trade

Pen/Camera/Camcorder/Mac

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poetry/photography/cinematagraphy

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Jun 14, 2009

Annoyances...

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Ok, so as I'm sure I don't have to state, is everyone knows about the stupid dtv switch. This whole thing has been a joke and a half I think. They REQUIRED a luxury. What the hell is this? The only good to come of this, is "better quality TV" supposedly. Yet, the bad, very much out-weights this by a long shot. 1) The better quality happens, IF you get the channels. I had to help set it up for my grandparents. They LOST channels. They lost 3 channels, that they normally would get. 2 that were iffy at times, and 1 they always got, and was the one they preferred. Yet, somehow, one they never used to get, they now get. How the hell does it work s

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Apr 25, 2009

Strangly Upbeat

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EyI4p0yjDQ awesome video. i wanna grow up like that:) this video makes me really happy for some reason. :) thats all i have to say but except for one simple fact. anyone who doesnt wanna grow old like that, is a doodoo-head:)

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Apr 15, 2009

Stress And No Sleep

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so the last 72 hours has sucked.....4 hours, 1 hour, 2 hours sleep.....add in ive been stressed to hell about any and everything lately... still unemployed... cant find any employment.. and worst of all.. still at home.... ive been losing the little stability ive somehow managed to keep after so many years... im starting to scare myself with how completely detached ive been towards myself.... my own emotions...and just in general.... until next time.. and a hopefully less depressing next journal entry... this is the look into my fucked up mind that you get.