Ok, so as I'm sure I don't have to state, is everyone knows about the stupid dtv switch. This whole thing has been a joke and a half I think. They REQUIRED a luxury. What the hell is this? The only good to come of this, is "better quality TV" supposedly. Yet, the bad, very much out-weights this by a long shot. 1) The better quality happens, IF you get the channels. I had to help set it up for my grandparents. They LOST channels. They lost 3 channels, that they normally would get. 2 that were iffy at times, and 1 they always got, and was the one they preferred. Yet, somehow, one they never used to get, they now get. How the hell does it work some got a LOT weaker, and some got stronger. What good does this do us?
Reason 2) What does the average person get from this? Nothing. They had to SPEND! money for what? A required luxury. Required might seem strong at first, but think of it this way. Those who are low income, and at this time with the economy, is MANY more people. Those most affected by the new laws and bills getting passed, will now be completely out of the loop. For them to stay in the loop, they have to take money that they need to support their families, and EAT, just to MAYBE (reception in their area considered, since some stations seem to completely disappear.) and buy a stupid box, that lets face it, is money that the big companies are going to make, but we average people, will NEVER see a cent of.
So basically, follow the money. These companies have made a KILLING!!! off of selling these, but has anyone heard of any new jobs being made for this? And if so, how long will they last? So basically law makers, who probably were buddy-buddy with these companies, if not bribed to some extent, to pass this law, to make them money, and, shockingly enough, screwing over the little guys again....
So I'm going to end this the way it started.
Why are we being forced to pay more, for what "better" tv, which should be simply a luxury for those who wish to spend it, but not those are scrapping by, and although TV, is a luxury, many have and it's their only for of getting info from the outside world, which in America, information about the world has never been seen as a luxury, but seen as something that is required to be an educated voter, which in the end, and very loosely, a core value of America.... How American is America becoming?

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awesome video. i wanna grow up like that this video makes me really happy for some reason. thats all i have to say but except for one simple fact. anyone who doesnt wanna grow old like that, is a doodoo-head

so the last 72 hours has sucked.....4 hours, 1 hour, 2 hours sleep.....add in ive been stressed to hell about any and everything lately... still unemployed... cant find any employment.. and worst of all.. still at home.... ive been losing the little stability ive somehow managed to keep after so many years... im starting to scare myself with how completely detached ive been towards myself.... my own emotions...and just in general.... until next time.. and a hopefully less depressing next journal entry... this is the look into my fucked up mind that you get.

so yeah... im taking some online college courses (well planning on/forced into it) and i have to take an orientation course, of which i guess at this point, i cant pass.... again... im really starting to realize i just cant do school any more... and that up till now, its been a waste of time.. and money... and effort... and stress. of course my so-called father will say its all my fault, go off on me... and probably kick me out of the house... yay.....well... at least the weathers been getting warmer?
then mix in the fact i still cant find a job... yay.... hopefully something falls through for the summer at the camp i worked at this winter... because if not.... im screwed most likely... and dont know how much of the torment my mind seems to LOVE putting me through, that i can take.

ok, so this past weekend i met someone at the camp i work. shes really cool, and we've been talking a lot, its nice. just the last couple days, i think ive been falling for her. just i dont know if its my mind trying to set me up for torment through my being a complete sucker and hopeless romantic... or if this is actually something that may turn out. if it werent for the fact we both had JUST met... i might say something.. but id feel pretty pathetic if i were to say "hey, i know we've not even known each other a week, but i think i really like you and would like to see if we could work as a couple." im so confused as to what to do, because it seems almost like its not just one way, but i dont know if its made up in my head or what...the most annoying part of this.... up till today, i was doing just fine with not minding how it went, and just going with how things go. but of course, last night my mind had to start tormenting me, and not let me actually have some peace. i guess ill just have to sit around and see how it works out.....